life goes on

Got back from Disney a week ago today. Finally feel like I have caught up on most everything - except laundry. We came back to Reality World with a THUD.

Monday we got a call from our close friends and attorney. They are adoptoin attornies. They might have a baby girl and were we interested. We had decided we were finished with adding to our family but ..... I called Scott and decided no not right now. We needed to find out what is wrong with Drew first. He is going to a behavior peditrican in December. He may have FAE or Asperger's. Scott wants to wait until we get it figured out with him. He doesn't want to add anymore to my plate if Drew is going to need all my time. But Peg told me there is a good chance that there will be a little girl in January if we are interested. Even Phil is on board if we go forward.

Tuesday - Phil had his regional soccer game. I am still trying to figure out how the goalie(phil) could come out of the game with a concussion, strained neck and knee as well as a bruised liver. i think they decided they were playing football instead of soccer. He is better now. Scott was home with food poisoning. He couldnn't take care of Drew while I was at the hosptial with Phil so I had to have Scott's mom come take care of Drew.

Thursday I noticed that Phil's eye was red again. So I took him to the doc on Friday. The doc sent us back to the eye doc. Phil had an ulcerated cornea in June so I was worried. the eye doc discovered another infection in Phil's cornea. So phil is on antibiotic drops every hour and steroid drops every 4 hours. He went back on Saturday and he said it was better but needs to go back on Tuesday. He may not be wearing contacts for a while.

To top it off my BF mom is dying and I am trying to help her thru that.

I think I like fantasy land better than reality world.

Pixie Dust
c.

Another First of Many Lasts

I have always had tradtions with my kids. With Phil on the first day of school since Kindergarten I have taken him to breakfast before school. This year after breakfast he looked at me and said this was the first of many lasts. Next year on his first day of school I will more than likely be 7 hours away. He will be in Minnesota and I will be in Kansas. When he said that I cried. It was bittersweet.

Today was Headmaster's Holiday. A wonderful tradtion my son's school has. It is a day that no one knows but a few special (elite) members of the school. It is announced at morning meeting and there is pandimonium after. A rush of phone calls to parents and wonderful excitement. In the past it has always been in the spring. The school has done things like take the whole school to a baseball game, rented out a movie theatre to watch new release movies etc. This year they changed it up and moved it to the fall. They are headed to the Renassaince Fesitval in Kansas City. Every kid will have admission paid, a small amount of spending money as well as lunch. It is another last.

Drew has become addicted to Playhouse Disney. He would watch it all day long if he could. I think it is the excitement of the upcoming trip.

getting ready for this trip is horrid. I have more laundry than any 4 people need. I asked everyone to help do it over the weekend but everyone had other plans. So I am getting it folded now but everyone has to pack for themselves. I want to enjoy my vacation too so I am about done doing for everyone so I can enjoy it too.

Pixie dust to everyone.

TOOO EXCITED

Have you seen the comerical of the kids who are going to Disney and the little boy says he is too excited to sleep? We are leaving in 6 days and I know what he is talking about. i have a ton to do before we go but it is Disney World for goodness sake. Who wouldn't be excited? My family thinks I am crazy but where else can I enjoy being a kid for a week? I have had to promise not to push everyone while we are there to see and do everything. DH has promised we can go back. I was there once 10 years ago when Phil was 5. I remember the look on my exhusbands face when he saw the castle for the first time. Even he who never knew how to ahve a good time changed into a little kid who wanted to give Mickey a Hug. There is something about the place that lets every adult relive their inner child. And let's every child believe in every bit of magic that could ever be. I have some special surpirsed for my boys but I can't reveal them here incase DS17 has found this and some of the surprises are for him.

Sending everyone pixie dust to have a magical day
Cathy

Tired

Boy, changes in weather do a number on me. I can hardly hold my eyes open. We went from 96 yesterday to 70 today.

so much is going on but I can't get my thoughts together enough to type. Scott was named to the Principals Professional group for his company. Only 76 people in teh company are named to this group. The next CTO will come from there. Scott is an engineer. He is currently finishing his Masters and starts his PhD in the spring. He is brilliant even if he doesn't realize it. I guess that is part of his charm.

I haven't told anyone about my blog. Guess it is my chance at anonimty. I feel like everyone knows me and here i can talk/write and noone knows who I am so I can say what I want. Kind of like a diary but everyone but my family and friends can read/know about it.

I am not a political person but one day soon I plan on commenting on the recent school shootings. i have kids in high school and it scares the beejeesus out of me. I will also comment on the jerk Foley (how dare he use is position to abuse kids) I honestly don't believe he was ever abused - great cop out. won't even go into drinking while voting on bills in congress. but I can't be this tired or I will ramble and it won't make sense.

till tomorrow.

Day Two

Why do kids love shock value? Phil calls on my cell phone today and says he wants to fill out one more college application. The Air Force Academy. UH NO!!!! His health would keep him from it. He has asthma, a heart condition, plus possible Chrons. Not to mention ADD, Dyslexia, Dysgraphia and Executive Function Disorder and panic attacks. I told him we would talk tonight. Called the college counselor - he agreed that it wasn't a good match for Phil and would talk to him. Sometimes he just doesn't get what is not possible. I always want to encourage my kids but I just don't think this is possible. He is so much like is biological dad it is scary. I look at him and see Mike sometimes. They rarely have contact but he sounds like him and says some of Mike's catch phrases. I have to stop and pause and really wonder about Nature vs. Nurture. I would love to talk to Mike about it sometime but he refuses to talk to me. Like it is my fault he gave up his rights to Phil. It was actually a blessing because Phil got a normal life without being shuttled back and forth. But I know deep down Phil was crushed when Mike agreed to it. I can be in the same room with Mike at a school function and he looks right thru me. HELLLOOOOO!!!! We shared something once - the least you can do is say HI. Phil wanted out of that house so much because of Mike's wife. She doesn't have a maternal bone in her body. Phil feels so helpless when it comes to H(his half brother) and how she treats him. He wants to protect him and let him know what unconditinoal love is. B (Mikes wife) was raised when she did something wrong her mom withheld hugs and refused to speak to her. Phil worries that is the way H is being raised. Phil is a rescuer. He is like his mom (me) he wants everyone to be OK. It can't always be that way. It took me a long time to learn that. Hopefully it won't take him as long.

Day One

Like I don't have enough to do - I decide to start a blog. I am Cathy I am 39 and this is my life. I have a husband, Scott and 2 sons. Phil is 17 and Drew is 4. Also living with us is Aaron an exchange student from S. Korea. He is the third exchange student we have had. Yoo Sung is at Penn State and Sung is at Indiana. Both are college students. Also in residence are Kayla, the dog, Tilly and McCavity, the cats and a tank full of fish. I like to knit, cook read and spend time with my family - you know the usual mom stuff.

We live in a small town in the Midwest where is life is pretty calm. My life on the other hand is busy. Or at least I think it is. Currently we are planning a 10 day vacation to the MouseHouse in Florida. We leave in less than 2 weeks.

Phil goes to a small private school and I do volunteer work for them. He is involved in soccer and theater. Currently we are doing the college search for next year. We were to be in Minnesota this week looking at schools. Instead Phil decided to get sick and loose 17 pounds in 2 weeks so that put the trip on hold. The docs think he may have Chrons.

Drew is wonderful. Full of energy. Sometimes too much energy. He keeps us on our toes with his sense of humor and his antics. We never know what is going to be next with him. He has a stuffed monkey that is very real to him. Monkey goes everywhere and is Drew's alter ego.

Just for the record. I also have one sister who is my polar opposite and we rarely see eye to eye about anything. My mom died just over 2 years ago after along illness and my dad has remarried. I don't have much dealings with them as our values are totally different. It is hard because we used to be a very close loving family. Little did i realize it was my mom that kept it that way.